Wednesday, August 26, 2009 Y 7:26 PM
Back to post *
Many many things has been happening after my last post for my blog.
And now i wanna spill out something about ME*
hais, i also duno where to start about it . hmm, Yi Ling has been with me for 2month ! 2MONTH ! jus nice for TODAY ~ 26o8o9 .
and i guess our relationship has come to an end for today le bah.
she came to my house today and ytd we have a small argument about another girl * FIFI * this girl here FIFI smsed me few day ago and say wad , wanna come my house or wadeva shit , and YiLing saw the message when i am sleeping. so she took my handphone to reply her .
and when i woke up , we have a BIG quarreling about this .
after that YiLing went to her blog and spam FIFI number on her post . and i bet someone saw YiLing blog . so that guy smsed FIFI , and ytd nite before we have small conflict . FIFI told me that : ask me go and see YiLing blog for wad YiLing did in her blog . and FIFI also said that , she would rather go report police if YiLing not going to remove her number thru her blog .
i reali duno wad to do last nite , i was caught the middle of NOWHERE ! no one understand how i feel. i am reali sad and i reali duno wad should i reali do . should we break off or we try to make this relationship more stable? but i have already been trying to make this relationship more stable le. but i guess now i have failed bah .
hais !
when you truly love someone :you don look for Fault,you don look for Answer,you don look for Mistakes,INSTEAD.you Fight for the Mistakes,you Accept the Fault,you Overlook the Excuse.after 7th month started , i have been dreaming alot alot of things .
has been 3 night le , i keep on dreaming something related to Zhi Xiang death things. hais , i reali duno wad to do . YiLing was totally right . i jus cant put his death down and forget about it . i have been blaming myself . for his death . i was the last person who sniff glue with him, and after i see him down to lift i head back home . how would i know he will come back upstair and jump from my house outside . hais ! and this things has made me realize wad is BROTHER ! after his death , i have LOST more den 20BROTHERS . and someone i used to LOVE ALOT !
i knew no one expected this to happen too . but , haiya~
EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT. i reali give up about my life le .
now YiLing also go le. parent keep nag like fuck .
but i am a guy who wont speak out my mind de wad. yet they keep forcing me , i reali wanna ask them : do you all wish i would be like Zhi Xiang?
while i was writing about this blog after YiLing left from my place . my tears has been flowing . and i am listening to this song - ♥ 张宇 - 曲终人散 , it say :
你让他用戒指把你套上的时候
我察觉到你脸上复杂的笑容
那原本该是我
付予你的承诺
现在我只能隐身热闹中
我跟着所有人向你祝贺的时候
只有你知道我多喝了几杯酒
我不能再看你
多一眼都是痛
即使知道暗地里你又回头
我终于知道曲终人散的寂寞
只有伤心人才有
你最后一身红残留在我眼中
我没有再依恋的借口
原来这就是曲终人散的寂寞
我还想等你什么
你紧紧拉住我衣袖
又放开让我走
这一次跟我彻底分手
Sorry :
i cant give you the TRUST you Want.
i cant give you the CARE you Need.
i cant give you LOVE you has been Waiting for.
gonna stop blogging le , post again other day bah !
takecare ! byes readers ! CopyRight : hanshino : TheEmoKia
